As many of you know, last year I posted in an email the words to one of my favorite songs.
This year I have done the same for this blog, but I have used a diffrent one.
I am in no way comparing my self, to Mary or our fist born Son to Jesus.... But when I listen to the words of this song, and what may have been Marys Cry, questions and prayers, I can not help but to think of how I was leaning on the Lord while pregnant with Little Drake 5 years ago. With many of the same kids of crys, prayers and questions.
God is good and has been good to me.
Breath of Heaven- Mary's SongAmy Grant
I have traveled many moonless nights
Cold and weary, with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, you have come
And chosen me now To carry your son
I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone,Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now
Be with me now
Chorus:
Breath of heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Light in my darkness
Pour over me your holiness
For you are holy
Breath of heaven
Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one one should have had my place
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me beHelp me
(Chorus)(Chorus)Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
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I stand in awe of how God can "speak" to me through music. I have highlited the verses that cut right to my heart. A a parent, I sure any of you can relate to the words in this song, even with your own Son or Daughter.
Hugs,
Heather
Monday, December 22, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Our Little BIG Boy!
I am still having a hard time saying 5... It just sounds so old to me. I know that LD looks 6 or 7, but saying 4 was so much easier for me as his Mom. We had a great evening the night of his Birthday. Thank you to all of you who remembered and made his day extra special with Cards, gifts, visits, and phone calls!! You will see from the photos below, that he always knows when it is his turn, his birthday cake coming his way!!!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Sons are a heritage from the LORD, children a reward from him."- Psalm 127:3
WOW... Our first born Son turns five today- a day that I have thought long and hard about. I have mixed emotions. I am so glad that our Little Drake is growing and continues to beat all odds, but wow... five already. I can remember my fifth birthday. I got a new two wheel bike. A huffy cactus rose, with a big banana seat... it was hot pink and while and the handle bars were taller then me. Big Drake says he had his "mid life crisis" when he was five, ask him, I do not get it.
5 years ago, Drake and I were so blessed when we were chosen to be parents. A life long dream for me to be a Mom, fulfilled by Gods blessing. As many of you know our Pregnancy was a difficult one. Honestly it was almost all downs and very few ups, and they only lasted until I was 18 weeks pregnant. Every week, several times some weeks more then once we had different Dr appointments, Sonograms, MRI's, and blood tests. All to learn each time that our baby was continuing to grow at a normal stage in his weight and body, but his brain was a totally different story. Time after time, week after week, day after day, phone call after phone call, Dr after Dr, hospital after hospital, we were told "this baby has sever problems in his brain, very bad, usually "we" do not see this kind of problem this early on, you really need to have an abortion this baby is not going to make it... you are running out of time, in the state of MD... Those words haunted us in the first few weeks, clinging only to Prayer and God for strength and asking for guidance. The bible is very clear on what God thought about my baby.
Psalm 139:13 - 16: " For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
** let me just add something, the Bible is the Word of God, cover to cover, if you do not like it, it is still the word of God. You can not pick and choose what you think is true or not true...**
We can only say today that five years later, we clung onto the promises of God in a way that we had never needed to before. Through prayer and Gods Grace, love from family and support from friends, He gave us assurance that he was in control, the peace that passes all understanding and gave us a sense of great hope, and an unexplainable joy, that no medical Dr, MRI, more bad news, peoples ungodly opinions and advice regarding our Faith, decision regarding abortion, could take away!!! I can honestly say that I loved being pregnant, even though I was huge, sick, and had deathly high blood pressure. For me it was amazing, that the Lord wanted me, Heather Ferguson to carry a Son, Drake Michael Ferguson, that was totally created by God.
There were hard days. Our faith was a bit shaken at times, but again, we were able to be joyful in the midst of our sorrow. Every pregnant couple wants the "perfect baby" We honestly had no idea what to expect, what he would look like?, what would he really not be able to do?... how would we care for him?, would we be able to?... Surgery? Brain surgery? On a new born???? Are you kidding me! Dr Ben Carson, is going to cut open my baby's head and install a Vp shunt in to his brain... and Dr Carson told me that he believes that ever child is a gift from God, and will do everything he can as his DR and not to worry, we will get through it together.
We were told that from the information seen on the sonograms that Little Drake would never do the following
- sit up on his own
- Hold his head up
- swallow
- eat on his own
- talk
- possibly not respond to any thing
- have sever vision impairment if any vision at all
- most likely would not be able to walk
- will never live on his own
- would have several other medical issues aside from the damaged brain.
I am writing this blog today, to remind you that God is in Control of all things! We may not agree, understand on this side of Heaven, or be able to explain why, BUT He is faithful and His will is not ours to call. If I had listed to the Dr's, some of the Top medical Dr's and not The Lord, Our beautiful Little Drake would not be in our lives today. Thank you Jesus he is!!
and may I add, Little Drake:
- sat up on the floor by his first birthday!
- with the help of several PTs over the years can hold his head up!
- Swallows Just fine!
- have you ever seen my boy eat... he is a Ferguson after all!
- he says Daddy, Moma, and a few words
- he responds to things that he is interested in, especially food.
- He has vison problems, we are working in them, but Praise God he can see
- He can "run" just about in his walker, and just in the past few months can walk for short distances with one hand held firm. All PT's working with him say he is going to be a walker! And Lord willing, soon...
- We will have him with us at home until we can not anymore
- he has several medical issues, but again, we are blessed it could be so much worse and I see it everyday at marley Glen School, Kennedy Kreiger, and Johns Hopkins.
We are so Thankful to the Lord this day, December 3 five years later. Even though you are not getting a two wheel bike for your fith birthday like Mom and hopefully wont go through a mid life crisis like Dad, what ever you do... You are a blessing and we are so glad that you are our Son.
In 5 years you have been through so many hard times, surgerys,seisures, breathing treatments, medication changes, ambulance rides, hopstpital says, Dr appts, daily therapys, bumps and bruises, pricks and prods, and through it all You are always Happy Smiling and clapping for Joy! A reminder to us all...
Drake Michael Ferguson
4 lbs
15 1/2 inches
33 1/2 weeks
Drake Michael Ferguson
54 lbs
5 years old
Happy Birthday!
Mom, Dad and Sir Caleb!
5 years ago, Drake and I were so blessed when we were chosen to be parents. A life long dream for me to be a Mom, fulfilled by Gods blessing. As many of you know our Pregnancy was a difficult one. Honestly it was almost all downs and very few ups, and they only lasted until I was 18 weeks pregnant. Every week, several times some weeks more then once we had different Dr appointments, Sonograms, MRI's, and blood tests. All to learn each time that our baby was continuing to grow at a normal stage in his weight and body, but his brain was a totally different story. Time after time, week after week, day after day, phone call after phone call, Dr after Dr, hospital after hospital, we were told "this baby has sever problems in his brain, very bad, usually "we" do not see this kind of problem this early on, you really need to have an abortion this baby is not going to make it... you are running out of time, in the state of MD... Those words haunted us in the first few weeks, clinging only to Prayer and God for strength and asking for guidance. The bible is very clear on what God thought about my baby.
Psalm 139:13 - 16: " For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
** let me just add something, the Bible is the Word of God, cover to cover, if you do not like it, it is still the word of God. You can not pick and choose what you think is true or not true...**
We can only say today that five years later, we clung onto the promises of God in a way that we had never needed to before. Through prayer and Gods Grace, love from family and support from friends, He gave us assurance that he was in control, the peace that passes all understanding and gave us a sense of great hope, and an unexplainable joy, that no medical Dr, MRI, more bad news, peoples ungodly opinions and advice regarding our Faith, decision regarding abortion, could take away!!! I can honestly say that I loved being pregnant, even though I was huge, sick, and had deathly high blood pressure. For me it was amazing, that the Lord wanted me, Heather Ferguson to carry a Son, Drake Michael Ferguson, that was totally created by God.
There were hard days. Our faith was a bit shaken at times, but again, we were able to be joyful in the midst of our sorrow. Every pregnant couple wants the "perfect baby" We honestly had no idea what to expect, what he would look like?, what would he really not be able to do?... how would we care for him?, would we be able to?... Surgery? Brain surgery? On a new born???? Are you kidding me! Dr Ben Carson, is going to cut open my baby's head and install a Vp shunt in to his brain... and Dr Carson told me that he believes that ever child is a gift from God, and will do everything he can as his DR and not to worry, we will get through it together.
We were told that from the information seen on the sonograms that Little Drake would never do the following
- sit up on his own
- Hold his head up
- swallow
- eat on his own
- talk
- possibly not respond to any thing
- have sever vision impairment if any vision at all
- most likely would not be able to walk
- will never live on his own
- would have several other medical issues aside from the damaged brain.
I am writing this blog today, to remind you that God is in Control of all things! We may not agree, understand on this side of Heaven, or be able to explain why, BUT He is faithful and His will is not ours to call. If I had listed to the Dr's, some of the Top medical Dr's and not The Lord, Our beautiful Little Drake would not be in our lives today. Thank you Jesus he is!!
and may I add, Little Drake:
- sat up on the floor by his first birthday!
- with the help of several PTs over the years can hold his head up!
- Swallows Just fine!
- have you ever seen my boy eat... he is a Ferguson after all!
- he says Daddy, Moma, and a few words
- he responds to things that he is interested in, especially food.
- He has vison problems, we are working in them, but Praise God he can see
- He can "run" just about in his walker, and just in the past few months can walk for short distances with one hand held firm. All PT's working with him say he is going to be a walker! And Lord willing, soon...
- We will have him with us at home until we can not anymore
- he has several medical issues, but again, we are blessed it could be so much worse and I see it everyday at marley Glen School, Kennedy Kreiger, and Johns Hopkins.
We are so Thankful to the Lord this day, December 3 five years later. Even though you are not getting a two wheel bike for your fith birthday like Mom and hopefully wont go through a mid life crisis like Dad, what ever you do... You are a blessing and we are so glad that you are our Son.
In 5 years you have been through so many hard times, surgerys,seisures, breathing treatments, medication changes, ambulance rides, hopstpital says, Dr appts, daily therapys, bumps and bruises, pricks and prods, and through it all You are always Happy Smiling and clapping for Joy! A reminder to us all...
Drake Michael Ferguson
4 lbs
15 1/2 inches
33 1/2 weeks
Drake Michael Ferguson
54 lbs
5 years old
Happy Birthday!
Mom, Dad and Sir Caleb!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Things that I am thankful for...
Jesus, and his Saving blood
My wonderful Husband of 6 years, this month
Our two little boys who bring us great joy
Parents who are still alive and are able to be involved, and love us and our kids and always offer to help is when we are in need.
Our Church Family
Friends, who have been friends, through many years, tears and times of great Joy
Friends who love my kids like there own and will do anything for them, but will correct them when they are wrong as well.
Good Health
Good Jobs
Health Insurance
A nice home: food, hot water, bathroom, comfortable beds etc ( I am praying for the right rancher some day)
A reliable van and Car and .... Yes Drake your 86 pick up truck!
Wonderful teachers for my boys, and great schools
Excellet OT and PT that love and work with LD each week
Ld is getting stronger
Semi-controled seizures
corrected eye sight with glasses for caleb
Caleb, talking more and wanting me to always play with him, making me feel like I am his best friend.
Drake being smoke free since July of 08
Me having the strengeth to get through each day with a husband who is always at work and having a 53 lb four year old.
Gods faithfulness to us over the past year. His love, his care and his protection, meeting all of our needs.
"For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD."- Psalm 117:2
Happy Thanksgiving,
Heather and Clan
My wonderful Husband of 6 years, this month
Our two little boys who bring us great joy
Parents who are still alive and are able to be involved, and love us and our kids and always offer to help is when we are in need.
Our Church Family
Friends, who have been friends, through many years, tears and times of great Joy
Friends who love my kids like there own and will do anything for them, but will correct them when they are wrong as well.
Good Health
Good Jobs
Health Insurance
A nice home: food, hot water, bathroom, comfortable beds etc ( I am praying for the right rancher some day)
A reliable van and Car and .... Yes Drake your 86 pick up truck!
Wonderful teachers for my boys, and great schools
Excellet OT and PT that love and work with LD each week
Ld is getting stronger
Semi-controled seizures
corrected eye sight with glasses for caleb
Caleb, talking more and wanting me to always play with him, making me feel like I am his best friend.
Drake being smoke free since July of 08
Me having the strengeth to get through each day with a husband who is always at work and having a 53 lb four year old.
Gods faithfulness to us over the past year. His love, his care and his protection, meeting all of our needs.
"For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD."- Psalm 117:2
Happy Thanksgiving,
Heather and Clan
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Semper-FiSaturday, November 1, 2008
Camera finally Fixed... Photo session and update
All I can say is, if the world is ever in trouble I think between an Infantry Marnie and Superman we have it covered Ferguson Style...
These are halloween gifts we have collected over the years from Aunt Lisa
and Our Fl Grandparents! Thanks all!
Caleb loves Mickey Mouse and thought that the
These are halloween gifts we have collected over the years from Aunt Lisaand Our Fl Grandparents! Thanks all!
Caleb loves Mickey Mouse and thought that the
light in the pumpkin was cool!
I put it up on the counter to bring little Drake over to see
I put it up on the counter to bring little Drake over to see
Caleb was yelling Momma, he wanted it down again...
Calebs school had a Harvest Party, he and his Teacher MS. Amy
Calebs school had a Harvest Party, he and his Teacher MS. Amy
had on farmer clothes!
Drakes Mom and step Dad from Fl came for an overnight visit.
We had breakfast at Robert Evans (Bob Evans) after Gym.
Caleb saying cheese...
We spent a Saturday at the pumpkin farm with our
Drakes Mom and step Dad from Fl came for an overnight visit.We had breakfast at Robert Evans (Bob Evans) after Gym.
Caleb saying cheese...
We spent a Saturday at the pumpkin farm with our good friends, Aj, Cooper and Maryte. LD was not able
to go, so he spent the afternoon with my Mom and Dad!
Cooper, Aj and Caleb. Cooper is the little boy
who is sick in the Host, we are praying for him...
Maryte and I wanted a group photo, Caleb was looking
Brave Caleb feels the sheep
Caleb and Cooper enjoy the animals
We spent a weekend in Williamsburg with family and friends
to go, so he spent the afternoon with my Mom and Dad!
Cooper, Aj and Caleb. Cooper is the little boywho is sick in the Host, we are praying for him...
Maryte and I wanted a group photo, Caleb was lookingat the Tractor, Aj did not want to sit and Cooper was
happy just being on the hay ride
Brave Caleb feels the sheep
Caleb and Cooper enjoy the animals
We spent a weekend in Williamsburg with family and friendsCaleb thought that his cousin was soooo funny at dinner
One day we will have a good family shot...
Cousins and friends, on the fence at Williamsburg
A trip to the Zoo with Nanna and Grandpa
Caleb wanted to get in the cages with many of the animals
Nanna and Gpa pointed out things to Caleb
Thks Nanna and Gpa for a great day, hope it was not to much of a Zoo!!
One day we will have a good family shot...
Cousins and friends, on the fence at Williamsburg
A trip to the Zoo with Nanna and Grandpa
Caleb wanted to get in the cages with many of the animals
Nanna and Gpa pointed out things to Caleb
Thks Nanna and Gpa for a great day, hope it was not to much of a Zoo!!Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Prayer Request.
One of our little friends who is just 2 years old is very sick tonight. Little Cooper is in the Hospital and has lung infection. Please pray for him tonight, that his body will begin to heal and that he will be able to eat, drink and go home soon.
Once I get my camera part, you will see a photo of him, his is just darling!
Thanks!
Heather
Once I get my camera part, you will see a photo of him, his is just darling!
Thanks!
Heather
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