This years favorite Song:

As many of you know, last year I posted in an email the words to one of my favorite songs.
This year I have done the same for this blog, but I have used a diffrent one.
I am in no way comparing my self, to Mary or our fist born Son to Jesus.... But when I listen to the words of this song, and what may have been Marys Cry, questions and prayers, I can not help but to think of how I was leaning on the Lord while pregnant with Little Drake 5 years ago. With many of the same kids of crys, prayers and questions.
God is good and has been good to me.

Breath of Heaven- Mary's SongAmy Grant

I have traveled many moonless nights
Cold and weary, with a babe inside
And I wonder what I've done
Holy Father, you have come
And chosen me now To carry your son
I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone,Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now
Be with me now
Chorus:
Breath of heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Light in my darkness
Pour over me your holiness
For you are holy
Breath of heaven
Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one one should have had my place
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me beHelp me
(Chorus)(Chorus)Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
Breath of heaven
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I stand in awe of how God can "speak" to me through music. I have highlited the verses that cut right to my heart. A a parent, I sure any of you can relate to the words in this song, even with your own Son or Daughter.
Hugs,
Heather

Our Little BIG Boy!

I am still having a hard time saying 5... It just sounds so old to me. I know that LD looks 6 or 7, but saying 4 was so much easier for me as his Mom. We had a great evening the night of his Birthday. Thank you to all of you who remembered and made his day extra special with Cards, gifts, visits, and phone calls!! You will see from the photos below, that he always knows when it is his turn, his birthday cake coming his way!!!

Sons are a heritage from the LORD, children a reward from him."- Psalm 127:3

WOW... Our first born Son turns five today- a day that I have thought long and hard about. I have mixed emotions. I am so glad that our Little Drake is growing and continues to beat all odds, but wow... five already. I can remember my fifth birthday. I got a new two wheel bike. A huffy cactus rose, with a big banana seat... it was hot pink and while and the handle bars were taller then me. Big Drake says he had his "mid life crisis" when he was five, ask him, I do not get it.
5 years ago, Drake and I were so blessed when we were chosen to be parents. A life long dream for me to be a Mom, fulfilled by Gods blessing. As many of you know our Pregnancy was a difficult one. Honestly it was almost all downs and very few ups, and they only lasted until I was 18 weeks pregnant. Every week, several times some weeks more then once we had different Dr appointments, Sonograms, MRI's, and blood tests. All to learn each time that our baby was continuing to grow at a normal stage in his weight and body, but his brain was a totally different story. Time after time, week after week, day after day, phone call after phone call, Dr after Dr, hospital after hospital, we were told "this baby has sever problems in his brain, very bad, usually "we" do not see this kind of problem this early on, you really need to have an abortion this baby is not going to make it... you are running out of time, in the state of MD... Those words haunted us in the first few weeks, clinging only to Prayer and God for strength and asking for guidance. The bible is very clear on what God thought about my baby.

Psalm 139:13 - 16: " For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

** let me just add something, the Bible is the Word of God, cover to cover, if you do not like it, it is still the word of God. You can not pick and choose what you think is true or not true...**

We can only say today that five years later, we clung onto the promises of God in a way that we had never needed to before. Through prayer and Gods Grace, love from family and support from friends, He gave us assurance that he was in control, the peace that passes all understanding and gave us a sense of great hope, and an unexplainable joy, that no medical Dr, MRI, more bad news, peoples ungodly opinions and advice regarding our Faith, decision regarding abortion, could take away!!! I can honestly say that I loved being pregnant, even though I was huge, sick, and had deathly high blood pressure. For me it was amazing, that the Lord wanted me, Heather Ferguson to carry a Son, Drake Michael Ferguson, that was totally created by God.

There were hard days. Our faith was a bit shaken at times, but again, we were able to be joyful in the midst of our sorrow. Every pregnant couple wants the "perfect baby" We honestly had no idea what to expect, what he would look like?, what would he really not be able to do?... how would we care for him?, would we be able to?... Surgery? Brain surgery? On a new born???? Are you kidding me! Dr Ben Carson, is going to cut open my baby's head and install a Vp shunt in to his brain... and Dr Carson told me that he believes that ever child is a gift from God, and will do everything he can as his DR and not to worry, we will get through it together.

We were told that from the information seen on the sonograms that Little Drake would never do the following
- sit up on his own
- Hold his head up
- swallow
- eat on his own
- talk
- possibly not respond to any thing
- have sever vision impairment if any vision at all
- most likely would not be able to walk
- will never live on his own
- would have several other medical issues aside from the damaged brain.

I am writing this blog today, to remind you that God is in Control of all things! We may not agree, understand on this side of Heaven, or be able to explain why, BUT He is faithful and His will is not ours to call. If I had listed to the Dr's, some of the Top medical Dr's and not The Lord, Our beautiful Little Drake would not be in our lives today. Thank you Jesus he is!!
and may I add, Little Drake:
- sat up on the floor by his first birthday!
- with the help of several PTs over the years can hold his head up!
- Swallows Just fine!
- have you ever seen my boy eat... he is a Ferguson after all!
- he says Daddy, Moma, and a few words
- he responds to things that he is interested in, especially food.
- He has vison problems, we are working in them, but Praise God he can see
- He can "run" just about in his walker, and just in the past few months can walk for short distances with one hand held firm. All PT's working with him say he is going to be a walker! And Lord willing, soon...
- We will have him with us at home until we can not anymore
- he has several medical issues, but again, we are blessed it could be so much worse and I see it everyday at marley Glen School, Kennedy Kreiger, and Johns Hopkins.

We are so Thankful to the Lord this day, December 3 five years later. Even though you are not getting a two wheel bike for your fith birthday like Mom and hopefully wont go through a mid life crisis like Dad, what ever you do... You are a blessing and we are so glad that you are our Son.
In 5 years you have been through so many hard times, surgerys,seisures, breathing treatments, medication changes, ambulance rides, hopstpital says, Dr appts, daily therapys, bumps and bruises, pricks and prods, and through it all You are always Happy Smiling and clapping for Joy! A reminder to us all...

Drake Michael Ferguson
4 lbs
15 1/2 inches
33 1/2 weeks



Drake Michael Ferguson
54 lbs
5 years old


Happy Birthday!
Mom, Dad and Sir Caleb!

Things that I am thankful for...

Jesus, and his Saving blood
My wonderful Husband of 6 years, this month
Our two little boys who bring us great joy
Parents who are still alive and are able to be involved, and love us and our kids and always offer to help is when we are in need.
Our Church Family
Friends, who have been friends, through many years, tears and times of great Joy
Friends who love my kids like there own and will do anything for them, but will correct them when they are wrong as well.
Good Health
Good Jobs
Health Insurance
A nice home: food, hot water, bathroom, comfortable beds etc ( I am praying for the right rancher some day)
A reliable van and Car and .... Yes Drake your 86 pick up truck!
Wonderful teachers for my boys, and great schools
Excellet OT and PT that love and work with LD each week
Ld is getting stronger
Semi-controled seizures
corrected eye sight with glasses for caleb
Caleb, talking more and wanting me to always play with him, making me feel like I am his best friend.
Drake being smoke free since July of 08
Me having the strengeth to get through each day with a husband who is always at work and having a 53 lb four year old.

Gods faithfulness to us over the past year. His love, his care and his protection, meeting all of our needs.


"For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD."- Psalm 117:2
Happy Thanksgiving,
Heather and Clan

Happy Birthday Marines and Thank you Veterans...

Semper-Fi

The Fergs

Camera finally Fixed... Photo session and update

All I can say is, if the world is ever in trouble I think between an Infantry Marnie and Superman we have it covered Ferguson Style...
These are halloween gifts we have collected over the years from Aunt Lisa
and Our Fl Grandparents! Thanks all!

Caleb loves Mickey Mouse and thought that the

light in the pumpkin was cool!

I put it up on the counter to bring little Drake over to see

Caleb was yelling Momma, he wanted it down again...

Calebs school had a Harvest Party, he and his Teacher MS. Amy

had on farmer clothes!

Drakes Mom and step Dad from Fl came for an overnight visit.
We had breakfast at Robert Evans (Bob Evans) after Gym.

Caleb saying cheese...

We spent a Saturday at the pumpkin farm with our

good friends, Aj, Cooper and Maryte. LD was not able
to go, so he spent the afternoon with my Mom and Dad!

Cooper, Aj and Caleb. Cooper is the little boy
who is sick in the Host, we are praying for him...

Maryte and I wanted a group photo, Caleb was looking

at the Tractor, Aj did not want to sit and Cooper was

happy just being on the hay ride

Brave Caleb feels the sheep

Caleb and Cooper enjoy the animals

We spent a weekend in Williamsburg with family and friends

Caleb thought that his cousin was soooo funny at dinner

One day we will have a good family shot...

Cousins and friends, on the fence at Williamsburg

A trip to the Zoo with Nanna and Grandpa

Caleb wanted to get in the cages with many of the animals Nanna and Gpa pointed out things to Caleb

Thks Nanna and Gpa for a great day, hope it was not to much of a Zoo!!

Prayer Request.

One of our little friends who is just 2 years old is very sick tonight. Little Cooper is in the Hospital and has lung infection. Please pray for him tonight, that his body will begin to heal and that he will be able to eat, drink and go home soon.
Once I get my camera part, you will see a photo of him, his is just darling!
Thanks!
Heather

Transplant and Photo Update

My Moms Cousin Hal is healing well. Thank you all for your continued prayers. He will be in the Host. for at least three more weeks, if not longer. So far his body has not rejected his new organs and he is free from infection.
On another note...
Photos, I think We may have a fix... If it is the right fix, you should "see" us tomorrow.
Have a great night :)

Photos?

Thank you to those of you who have emailed me about the photos I was going to send out a few days ago...
My girl friends from work (Bonny and Maryte) make fun of me and say that I am so bad about posting photos, or at least I say I will and then never do)It is sometimes true.
I need to send photos of the Zoo, Williamsburg and Our trip to the Farm with friends. My card reader is not reading... I am going to Ritz tomorrow to get a new one or get it fixed. Hopefully tomorrow the problem will be resolved.
Have a great night!
Hugs, Heather

Update

My Mom talked to her other cousin, Hal's sister. The surgery went well. They actually did the transplants a few hours apart... The hard part is yet to come, Pray for his body to heal, not become infected and not to reject the new organs. I will let you know more as I do.
Hugs!

Pagers, remember those things?

My Mom just called. Her Cousin Hal Smith's pager just went off...
Hal has been on the top of the waiting list for a while waiting for a new liver and kidney. This will actually be his second liver transplant. He had one about 14 years ago.
Hal never drank, smoked or really did anything to damage his body. He has had liver problems and now kidney problems. He also suffers from diabetes and has had it for years as well.
Please pray for him as he is on his way in the car right now going to Cleavland for the transplants tonight. The most important part of the process will be after the surgery, that he will not suffer from infection and his body will not reject the new organs. He is in good spirts, Loves the Lord and is a total peace,with what ever the out come may be.
I have learned over this past year the importance of being an organ donor. Giving someone else the chance of a longer life on earth. In that same lesion I have learned how important it is to pray for the organ donors family.
As the Smith-Ferguson family prays tonight for Hal and thanks God for the new organs he will receive, there is a family who is suffering the loss of a loved one and planning a funeral.
Someone had to die, so that Hal may live... Sound farmilar?
I will keep you posted as I know, the surgery will be hours.

Blast from the Past!

This past weekend we met up with some friends from our old church. They moved a while ago to the Williamsburg Va area. They are a wonderful young couple, have four beautiful kids, and they are all Homeschooled. There Mom is very talanted and has a wonderful ability for doing very creative art projects with the kids. I love seeing what they have done from week to week in there blog.
It was great to spend the day with them, we miss them. When we were first married, we were in a SS class together at our old church. They had a surprise shower for me when I had Little Drake. Problem was I missed the shower b/c he was born so early. They had a get together of friends in the class anyway, during the scheduled time that was going to be the shower. They lived alomost across the street from Holy Cross, so after I got discharged we drove one block to there house for a wonderful dinner and into a room filled with gifts to take home.
Again it was great to see them and reconnect with them this past weekend. I will post photos tomorrow I promise.
We also got to see my cousins and there awesome daughter. Caleb and Annalysse rally took a liking to eachother this time. They often times were dancing together, one of Caleb's favorite things to do!
My Mom and Dad took us to the zoo a week or so ago. What a wonderful, wonderful day. We were all so tired, but Caleb had a blast. He was so excited and so happy to be at the zoo, He knows all his animals and loves making sounds. LD was enjoying the day too, I am not sure how he really took it all in, but he is always happy and has a great time just being with us.
Have a great day, I am off to bed it is way to late for a Momma to be up...
Photos tomorrow.
Hugs! Ferguson-Clan

Fireproof...

We went to the movies for the first time together in over a year. It was quite weird actually, but very nice.
We saw the new movie Fireproof. If you have not seen it...go! It was absolutely wonderful. To have a move on the 'big Screen" that speaks to married couples and offers hope, speaks about Love and Salvation through Jesus Christ,talks about Gods healing power and uses scripture to back it up is amazing. Please take the time to see it. You will be glad that you did. So many couples and there relationship can relate to the actor Kirk Cameron and his wife in some way. It will change your life, go and see it!
Check out the preview at the link below and let me know what you think.

www.fireproofthemovie.com

Hugs and Love, Heather

Take me out to the ball game!

Last week was very long. Drake worked over 90 hours, and we did not see much of him. Just to give you an idea, one ship was over 32 hours long! For some crazy reason he was off Friday night... and had won tickets to a company suite at the O's game! We were in a press box along with some of his co-workers! The boys had such a good time. Until the rain came and never stop ed, until Sunday eve. Drake returned to work Sat at 7 am, and did not return until Sunday at 3:00 am. Somehow he managed to make it up for church a few hours later and then we all took a nice nap. He returned to work Sunday night at 7 got home at midnight, and then returned to work today at 7:00 am and he is still gone...
Single parenting at a glance, I get the idea!
God continues to bless us and I am thankful for what we do have. It would be nice however to see my Hubby for a change!
Hugs to all!

The latest photos!

Yuck...

I have not written for a few days... We have had an unwanted visitor in the house for a week. We are calling him Mr. Yuck, he makes our stomach upset...
It all started last Thursday night when Caleb got sick. My Mom and Dad were with they boys during back to school night. After 6-7 times of getting sick, there wonderful Grandparent skills were ready for help.(Thanks Mom and Dad for being such good sports) Drake is so much better with that kind of sickness. He came home from back to school night, and helped with the continued sickness and clean up.
It has not stopped since. We have all had it now. After tons of cleaning, baths at all hours of the night, laundry non stop,crackers and Gatorade, etc, I think Mr Yuck is getting the hint, we do not want him around and he is on his way out of the Ferguson house.
I hope to have some photos to share soon.
Hugs!

9-11

I was very emotional today. Well do I remember sitting in my office at Tower Federal, and receiving an email from SR staff telling us to stay put and tune into a radio. Everyone in my department ran to a radio and we began to listen to the reports of an "accident" that had taken place in NY. A plane " accidentally" crashed into the world trade center. With in moments we received another email stating that all base branches were closing, and not to leave our building. With in 10 minutes the news came across the air as to what was really going on in NY. We all just sat there in silence, still very confused. We closed early, and I went to lunch with a few co-workers. We just sat and ate in silence as we watched the TV in the restaurant.
Drake was on the beltway for Hours not moving at all. He was on his way to Bethesda Navel Host with my Mom for therapy on his knee. He kept calling me saying that no one was moving at all, they were sitting for hours and the National Guard were along all sides of the road as far up and down as he was able to see.
I am conviced that the whole attack was planned and our government knew about it and there was some really shady details. If you inspect the 911 report, you would be amazed. I have several links to intersting facts if you are intrested. Just to give one example there was a news report that was talking about Tower 7 had fallen and was destroyed , but it actually fell 23 minutes after it was announced on Television...

For days, we sat watching news reports wondering what was going to happen next.
It was a day that I never want to repeat. I thank God for our great country and for the men and women who stand in harms way to protect us .
Semper Fi- The Ferguson Clan

Hannah Rebecca Ferguson (HRF).

ok, not really the Hannah I wanted to welcome to our Home and give the name above... I am really talking about the storm we are having named Hannah. If we are ever blessed with a girl, the above would be her name and then she and I would have the same initials, Middle and last name that I do. Not to mention the important Biblical application of the names!!(If Drake wins our girl would have the scotch- Irish name Kathleen Meghan) We are feeling the effects of storm Hannah today inside and out of our home. Caleb and I headed out for some fun between rain drops. He had to much energy to sleep and needed out of the house by 5:30, for a bit of fun.

Hope you are staying dry! Hugs, Ferguson Clan!

Hugs-Ferguson Clan

God can "speak" to me, even through my three year old...

I have had a very busy week. Getting ready for school, having the boys in two different schools two days a week, the same school three days this week, hosting two breakfasts very early in the morning ministering to new Moms dropping of kids to preschool for the first time, all while getting my self and two kids out of the house an hour earlier then normal to set up, keeping our "normal" daily appts for Ld, taking care of the house, staying up late till 1-2 am in the mornings just to see my Hubby and talk face to face with his as he comes home from hours and hours of work, ordering medications, forgetting to stop at the pharmacy to pick them up, having a dear friend (thanks Kelly) offer to pick up Calebs school supplies at she store and take them to school for me so I do not have to worry about going to the store this week. Having my dear friend Babet call to see if we just want to stop by and have a quick dinner,so I do not have to cook and worry about what to feed the family, My Mom and Dad having us over and watching to boys so that I can run to an appt.
I am not complaining at all. I love my job as Mommy and Wife and I would not change anything about it.

This morning, I opened Calebs door. I was sure that he was still asleep. Instead I found him sitting on his Bed quietly "reading" his Kids Bible. He was looking at the pages with the story of Daniel and the Lions Den. I was reminded how when I am not rushing I start my day and more frequently end my day when I am most tired. I was able to let LD sleep for an extra few minutes and Caleb stayed in his room while I went back to my room and did what my three year old was doing. What a wonderful way to start our busy day.
Often times I find my self going over my prayer list and reading when I am almost asleep. Drake and I often times will fall asleep talking or praying.
Caleb reminded me how to start the day on the right track. I am so thankful the God used Caleb to teach me something for a change.

Scrap Book Ferguson Style!

I have been very bad about updates towards the end of the summer. I am sorry and will try to update more now that we have a set schedule again. Enjoy the scrapbook, We love you!

God and Country day at Church. Look at all the Uniforms This is one of LD's projects from VBS

More VBS projects from both Boys!

Look at the next photo, can we say badness!

I stood across the room and watched to see what he was doing
before getting angry that he stood on the table. It was quiet funny

actually, he brought it to me to open.

Ok... The I burned a pizza, Caleb found it in the trash
and began to eat it...

He was very happy, and I was not!

We also went fishing on a Sunny afternoon

Little Drake caught his first fish!

Caleb meet up with his friends Aj and Cooper at the Park

and had a blast in the tubes.

And on the slide

Daddy gets Drake ready for Eye Surgery

Ld waits to be taken to pre-opp with his blankie

He falls asleep in pre-opp waiting for the DR

Mommy, is awake, but LD is still sleeping away!

The day after, still a bit loopy

The first day of Preschool!

Dinner in Canton
Drake x 2 in Canton

Both boys on the first day of Preschool. Thnks Gran Nan

for the cute clothes!